change is not the only constant yah?

hehe... been awhile since i updated.... paiseh arz.... veri sporadic nowsadays.... lazy larz... *shrugz*....

well... anyway... i guess i'll try to make another quantum leap in bite-sized technology todae.... but of coz.... we wun be missing today's reading!!! hehe...

today's reading has 2 realli nice verses dat i like veri much.... verse 28 is a verse dat i personally use a lot.... during times when thingz dun seem to go the way dat u want them to.... or when thingz ard u juz dun work out in general.... knowing dat all this kind of problems n realli hair-wrenching experiences r not all for nothing.... but instead itz the way in which God uses to mould to become the person He wants us to be.... n amidst all those troubles He still cares for us.... tho sometimes we juz feel so remote n alone...

verses 38 n 39 r veri special verses.... it is those times when u're feeling realli crappy abt urself n u tink u're juz not gd enuff to be called God's child or to be considered a Christian when dis verse can realli encourage u... there's this list of things dat can go between u n another person n an earthly relationship.... thingz like death.... or beliefs.... or worries.... or current disagreements.... but we know dat Christ is beyond all dat.... doesn't matter wat it is.... be it tangible or intangible.... all thingz dat r created cannot stand between Christ n us thru His love for us....

niway there's dis song i sang in church dat encompasses wat i'm trying to say today.... cool lyrics.... can ask me for the mp3 if u want.... kekeke... *piracy is gd....* oh yah... credit to sam n co who intro-ed the song to everyone... hehe...

Jesus Will Still Be There
Things change, plans fail,
you look for love on a grander scale.
Storms rise, hopes fade,
and you place your bets on another day.
When the going gets tough when the ride's too rough,
when you're just not sure enough...

*Chorus*
Jesus will still be there,
His love will never change, sure as a steady rain
Jesus will still be there,
when no one else is true, He'll still be loving you
When it feels like you've lost it all and you haven't got a prayer,
Jesus will still be there...

Time flies, hearts turn,
a little bit wiser from lessons learnt.
But sometimes, weakness wins,
and you lose your foothold once again.
When the going gets tough when the ride's too rough,
When you're just not sure enough...

*Chorus* x2

When it looks like you've lost it all,
and you haven't got a prayer
Jesus will still be there....

-Sung by "Point of Grace"

be a coffee bean.... tea leaf if u wanna....

hey ppl.... so sorry i haven't updated for some time.... waz feeling tired n lazy the past couple of days.... didn't even do any hw.... bad.... veri bad...

anyway dun tink i'll write abt the QT for the past few dayz.... i guess i'll juz pick the topic for discussion frm one of the QT's i done for the past few dayz dat i haven't updated... niway dun tink i'll talk abt todae's reading... itz so... sad n serious... shld talk abt something more uplifting.... yesterday's QT... it also has another reading relating to it.... read both... shld give u a better picture of wat i'll talk abt todae...

anyway todae's topic is abt frenz.... well... how would u define a fren... or who would u consider a fren.... interesting thing to tink abt.... izzit someone whom u talk to all the time..... or someone who u interact with everyday (e.g. in sch or at work)... or izzit someone who helps u whenever u need help n he/she's the first person u ask for help/advice whenever something problem crops up... well... gg by todae's reading.. how abt one who loves u for who u are.... who becomes a brother/sister to u... who helps u in ur worsest of situations....

"A friend loves at all times,
And a brother is born for adversity."

personally... i tink i dun haf such frenz... n to find such frenz is as hard as finding a coffee bean in a haystack.... itz not exactly impossible.... but still veri hard.... well.. perhaps u haf a different view.... if u do pls tag me board... ^^

well... with dat said.... i tink wat we can do is to try our best to be dat coffee bean to others.... to be dat fren who actually loves the ppl ard u.... not "romantic" kinda love but love as a fren.... even better if u can be a brother/sister to someone else.... i tink brotherly/sisterly love is a veri special thing.... n itz especially so when itz between ppl who r juz frenz n r TOTALLY not related in anyway by bloodline except thru Adam n Eve.... haha...

Bottomline: "Be a coffee bean today.... you'll never know who you'll perk up when you're picked out from the haystack..."

ok... another leap in "bite-sized" technology..... so i guess i'll sign off here.... cya again in the nxt entry..... ^^

bite sized entry.... latest development...

juz thought i'll juz post a little earlier so dat i can (hopefully) get down to some work..... hehe...

niway... as usual.... topic of discussion is today's QT.... itz abt being lonely but not being alone.... cool deep stuff.... aniway juz to side track a bit... i promise today's entry will be bite sized for easy reading but i hope dat will not result in having less food for thought or deep stuff to tink abt... if me entries have not been providing food for thought ever since the blog started.... then i deeply apologise for not tickling ur mind coz i'm trying as far as me maturity n experience in life can take me....

phew... ok... dat waz a long side track.... anyway baq to today's reading.... itz another encouraging reading.... especially when (i guess) most ppl can identify with this kinda loneliness... in this reading Jesus waz talking abt being TOTALLY abandoned with no one at his side when he waz arrested at Gethsemane... but still He waz conscious dat He waz not alone.... coz God waz with Him...

well.. maybe some will tink "hey.... i haf my frenz.. my family... my colleagues... all these ppl r ard me all the time! how would dis apply to me?? i'm hardly lonely.." well... everyone has moments when they're lonely... be it in ur room... or in the smelly toilet cubicle.... or when u lay on ur bed at night.... it is in these moments dat sometimes dis feeling of loneliness juz creeps into ur mind for no rhyme or reason... at dat time perhaps ur frenz n family wun be awake to talk to u or if u're in the toilet.... it'll be strange to talk to ppl in the nxt cubicle yah? hehe.. :P

then maybe some will tink "being alone means being alone.... wat do u mean when i'm lonely i'm not alone??? doesn't make cents sense...." well... God's presence is best felt when u're alone.... when there's no one to bug u or chat with u.... when itz juz thou, thyself and you (couldn't tink of any other way to put it... :P)... when u juz pray n reflect on ur day.. or ur problems.... or wat u've enjoyed for the day... or wateva... juz having someone to talk to when u're all alone.... might sound zi4 bi4 but hey.... it works for me.... aniway somehow the loneliness will juz fade away.... ok maybe talking to someone who doesn't reply might sound silly... but u know... as u get to know the bible better... God may speak to u thru verses dat u haf come across or even memorised at a point of time.... itz interesting... ^^

well.. guess i'll juz talk abt dis today.... hopefully dis is bite sized enuff.. hehe.. if u tink there's a compromise in content.... juz tag me board.... i'm open to comments... ^^ so til the nxt entry.... bye... :)

a short(er) entry... :P

well.. another day of another week... meaning it'll be 2-3 weeks to the prelims!! man.... time realli flies.... n i haven't realli gotten down to studying when EVERYONE else is..... dis is bad.... veri veri bad...

niway todae waz a tiring day.... woke up veri tired AGAIN.... dunno watz wrong with me... izzit bcoz of the lack of exercise or izzit coz of the burden of waking up to another torturous week of sch.... i wouldn't know.... well... i guess all dat matters is dat God knows n all i haf to do is trust in Him...

well.. today's QT is again veri applicable not juz for today... but for the past few yrs of my life.... today's reading (editted: 24/8/04... salah siaz... dat dayz reading on something else... muz haf been too tired... :P) has been something dat i haf been trying to understand for a looong time... ok sure... strength in weakness.... it means dat God will provide strength when u haf reached ur finite physical/mental/spiritual limit or u haf some lack of aptitude dat u're workin on reeeal hard.... but wat does it REALLI mean to haf strength in weakness??

i'm not struggling with the fact dat God does give strength in weakness.... wat i dun understand is how can it be applied in my life.... itz like i dun realli see the reality of it.... ok.. perhaps being tired n getting thru the day is one form of it.... but i see dis strength dat the passage is talking abt as in REAL LASTING strength.... strength dat will allow me to overcome dis problem of tiredness n laziness n lethargy once n for all..... perhaps i'm not getting the point of dis passage but yeah... i'm still learning n i'm open to any enlightenment on dis matter.... juz thought i'll bring dis up in case some of u might haf the same thought as well... then we can start some discussion on it on the tagboard or something.. i dunno.. hehe... but if u can help enlighten me/us in anyway... juz leave a note on the flooble.... dat will be veri much appreciated.... ^^

anyway.... came across dis passage when me mum passed me one the devotionals she had yesterday..... n itz a veri encouraging passage... especially verses 2 and 4...in the midst of these "difficult times" -quote yh- verse 2 speaks of not being overcomed by difficulties along the way of life.... i guess i'll haf to deepen my trust in the Lord coz i reeeealli feel burdened n subdued by all the thingz i need to do in sch n in church.... which shldn't be the way....

verse 4 to me is veri special.... it feels gd to be told dat i'm "precious" in God's sight.... *thankfully not Smeagle's sight.. kekekeke...* n i am loved.... everyone needs to be loved but love frm a supreme being realli is..... special.... well... itz more than special but juz can't find the word now.. haha... i especially like the last part.... "therefore i will give men for you, and ppl for ur life"... itz a nice thought to know dat all the ppl who haf helped us in life n all the frenz who picked us up when we're realli down haf ALL been provided by God to help us thru dis tough journey of life....

well.. itz a relatively short entry but i guess itz better to haf a short meaningful entry than a loooong entry datz trying to "squeeze water out of a rock"... also juz thought dat i'll end dis entry on a happier note... ^^ well.. tho i'm tired going thru these verses again realli lifts the burdensome-ness(?) of the day frm the heart.... feel so motivated to do work again.. haha... thank God for dat... ^^ maybe i'll end with a poem frm the church anniversary bulletin... talks abt appreciating God in nature n the way thingz are... enjoy.. ^^

We Thank You
for the never-failing promise of the seed;
for the lush-laden offering of the fruit tree.
for the quiet simplicity of the prairie,
for the royal majesty of the mountain;
for the immeasureable space; unfathomable time.
For all these, O God, an inexpressible gratitude floods our being.

-Marvin J. and Madelyn Hartman

Time for changes...

heya ppl.... juz woke up frm another urgently needed nap.... niway didn't post yesterday coz of the dinner thingie... got baq quite late..... waz tired.... sighz... hate being tired....

anyway dis blog is gonna undergo some reforms.... not aesthetically tho... but the format of posts is gonna change.... well... i'm gonna talk abt religion all i want here... itz MY blog... so to u so-called self-proclaimed "aethists" who haf a problem with me blogging abt religion... read on or exit here... coz dis is MY blog n here.... u're in MY world.... so if u haf problems with dat... tough... *shrugz*

oooook.... with structural change comes structural unemployment.... so pls excuse me if the entry isn't as gd....

well anyway yesterday me church celebrated itz 31st anniversary... *happy new yr*... it waz a gd time to see the whole church family coming together to participate in dis occassion.... n also a gd time to meet up with our fellow brethren frm overseas... itz been 15 yrs of missions work n as said b4... missions is worth it... anytime.... didn't haf time to catch up with the ppl frm overseas tho.... too many ppl and too much gd stuff to eat... haha... well... went home zonked out n juz plonked on the bed after bathing....

sunday sunday... woke up late todae!! sighz.... oh well... at least made it to church juz in time i guess.... watched a short clip on amy carmichael.... some missionary woman who did a lot of stuff in india... most well-known for her sortof "orphanage" in india where abandoned indian girls r brought to to seek refuge.... veri nice place to live in... plenty of greenery n beautiful architecture.... but yeah... the clip demonstrated wat God could do with one life... dat it may touch the lives of hundreds of ppl...

well... dis got me tinking... "i'm not outstanding like dat amy carmichael person.... so wat can God do with my life??"... such thoughts come to me oh so oftenly... but somehow dis time it got to me.... i didn't know wat i'm living for... for myself? yeah sure... there r many thing i can do for myself.... y not take drugz n juz wreck myself?? doing stuff for myself oso needs a direction..... n sad to say i've been rather directionless.... drifting ard with the flow of time... not knowing wat i'm doing with my life....

well... mum always has a gd way of helping me put stuff in perspective.... thank God for a gd discerning mum who juz knows how to get stuff across... well.. wasn't a scolding but still waz effective.. haha.. anyway i guess now i shld realli strip my life down to the bare essentials n try to keep the little extras in my life out of my life for the moment.... i've got too many thingz dat realli clutter up my life... esp those 2 dreaded thingz called SCHOOL n EXAMS... irksome.... but yeah... i guess my life has to revolve ard building dis personal relationship with God first.... as well as doing wat i can do for sch.... i guess my life so far has spun out of focus with the many thingz i haf to focus on.... it has come to a point of having no focus at all... juz living my life a day at a time doing wateva is thrown at me....

itz time to shape up n shake off the junk..... need to realli take some timeout to get down to seeing wateva i can shake off in my life.... i need to focus on a direction in life.... and with dat to eventually find my place in God's big plan in many years to come....

hmm... another area i gotta start developing is my prayer life.... frankly speaking i haven't been praying much for my past 18 yrs of my life.... as i haf thought abt b4.... i tink i'm a result of my parents' prayers.... if not for their prayers i wouldn't haf become who i am today.... i tink i would haf become a veeeri bitter person... i wun want dat too.... but now i tink itz the time for me to embark on my own journey of prayer.... coz "a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step"... n itz veri appropriate for me to start in my small way now... itz gonna be tough.... haf tried it for awhile b4... but now itz a commitment i haf to put down for life.... guess i gotta start with a little prayer book to write down wat i wanna pray for... i tend to forget.. hehe.. :P

well... i've been lamenting over my sad life for the past few months but today's talk with mum realli woke me up to a bigger perspective of thingz.... having been reaffirmed in easter.... i haf committed my life to God... n itz up to Him wat He wants to do with it.... there r a few verses in Hebrews 12 dat realli reminds me of wat i haf gotten myself into (verses 7-11)... *ding dong* take some time to read it... itz meaningful stuff....having been reaffirmed n considered a "son of God"... i guess datz wat i haf to go thru now.... but yeah... guess these verses in James 1:2-4 sum up wat my mindset shld be with all these crap coming up in my life....

well... i wun apologise for the constant bombardment of bible verses.... itz fun to find something datz not juz in the bible for the sake of looking oh so cheem n sophisticated but itz applicable in life n actually works.... so yeah... pls take some time to read those verses if u can spare some time....

well.. i dis entry's been veeeri long.... guess i shld sign off for now... if u haf read the entire entry pls tag me flooble.... u'll be given due acknowledgement for ur achievement.. hahaha... :P so til the nxt entry... hasta la vista... baby.... :P

AVP = Altogether Veri Pathetic....

today waz a cool day.. literally.... rained like crazy.... thankfully waz indoors.... haha...

well... took some time off the usual schedule of travelling between sch n home today.... went to watch AVP with jq, tan wj n wee lee.... chiong frm sch when lesson ended to catch the 3pm show at bishan... waz realli silly coz we got there 30 mins b4 the show n there were more than enuff seats available.... niway bought the tix n felt quite contented.... wandered ard j8 for awhile to kill the time.... went into the cinema feeling reeeeeal excited n watched the show.... many many sec sch kiddies ard.... been there done dat.. haha...

i muz say... the show waz a total disappointment.... it juz makes use of the fame dat the creators n directors of "alien" n "predator" haf worked soooo hard to attain to attract ppl to watch it.... all we get is some half past six effort where the storyline is totally pathetic n the onli gd thing abt it waz the com graphics... datz abt it... the storyline n setting is juz some sorry excuse for putting humanz, predators n aliens into an arena n then kick off a visually spectacular battle royale.... i bet the story writers forced in the whole pyramid morphing thingie juz to make the show different frm other shows.... datz it.... the ending waz totally pathetic.... as the chinese say.. "haf head dun haf tail".... n it waz so darn obvious they were poising for a sequel.... guess wat?? i dun see dat coming b4 humans go extinct....

anyway... wun wanna dwell too much on dis show... itz such a let down n waste of money.... kudos to tee who caught collateral (i tink)... hehe.... would watch dat anytime.... ^^

ok.. on to today's matter of discussion.... QT today is one of those entries where, to me, there's veri little link between the passage and the discussion in the devotional.... but still gd nonetheless.... well.. i guess there's more to talk abt in the passage than in the discussion in the devotional...

itz veri interesting wat the tongue can do.... besides french.. haha.. :P but seriously.... wat we say can be either veri destructive or veri constructive.... the power of speech is veri potent... as seen in the passage... the mouth, tho small, can still haf the power to direct thingz... juz like how the small rudder of a ship changes the direction of the ENTIRE ship.... we see dat power all the time.... like how hitler psychoed the germans to murder millions.... or how bush psychoed the americans to support the iraq war..... or perhaps on a more positive side.... we see maaaany examples of great ppl being encouraged by others when they're down n out n they're able to achieve great things.... take helen keller for example.... she used to throw a veri bad tandrum all the time when she lost her sight, hearing n ability to speak.... it waz her teacher mrs sullivan who waz veri patient with her n i bet she spoke to her a lot... encouraging helen to gain some confidence in herself despite all of her disabilities.... then we see helen keller setting up schs for the blind n other great thingz dat i totally forgot.. haha.. :P but still the example is there.... without this positive power of speech... helen keller would not haf done wat she had done....

well.. going further down in the passage... there's something abt how we shld be more decisive on how we want to communicate with others... we can either be veri bitter n resentful n curse others.... or we can be the lights in the world to brighten up someone's day.... well... rationally we would choose to be dat special someone to others.... but frankly speaking itz veri hard to practice such a discipline...

we're able to say nice thingz abt our frenz or family members.... then we're like the aforementioned spring dat bringz forth sweet water.... but when we go out n we see ppl we dun like... we start saying bad thingz abt them.... sometimes even insulting them... then we're like dat spring dat bringz forth bitter water... therein is the difficulty... but itz a nice challenge.... to be nice to ppl all the way.... may sound faggoty but I DUN CARE.... it works for me....

well... shldn't be giving a mini-sermon here.... haf had complains alreadi... haha... but nonetheless itz MY blog n i write wateva i want.. haha... i'll juz make it more convenient for u ppl to read it.... wonder y ppl dun like to talk abt issues pertaining to religion.... well... i guess i'll leave it to another entry coz i seriously dunno the answer.... gotta go out there n find out for myself.... i guess the entry's kinda long.. so i'll stop here.. hehe... so til the nxt entry.... poyitu varen...

the ego strikes baq....

hmm... was quite a wasted evening today.. hehe... couldn't control the urge to play Call of Duty again.... but thankfully could actually stop.. hahaha.... *slaps myself*

well... slept reeeal early dis morning.... therefore the after-effects are rhetorical.... haha... but wasn't late.... dis whole week i wazn't on the brink of being late so far... datz a miracle in itself....

well... today waz quite an ordinary day.... tho at some point of time during the morning break the tension got reeeeeal high.... a fite almost started in sch.... again a testiment to the "appealing advertisement to the huge elitist ego".... well.. if those who were involved r reading dis now... i dun mean to offend u in any way.... juz posting my honest thoughts on the issue... not the ppl involved...

anyway... guyz being guyz.... we all haf some lvl of ego.... most high some low.... but in any case some lvl.... conflicts usually start when 2 with relatively high ego's bump into each other.... both figuratively n literally.... itz like 2 particles of the same charge colliding with each other.... the reaction following the collision is humungous or even explosive to say the least.... the problem usually arises when no one wants to give way n the situation escalates to one of almost aggression....

well... an ego in itself is nth wrong.... everyone needs some ego.... itz part of cultivating confidence in urself.... healthy kind of self-esteem dat would allow u to confidently channel positive energies to constructive uses.... frankly speaking.... someone with no or insufficient self-esteem is realli juz a useless person who doesn't haf the drive to achieve anything in life bcoz of fear of incompetence... there.... so ego does haf some importance.....

BUT~~~!!! but but but but but...... once again.... most ppl do not know where or even how to draw the line between healthy n unhealthy egoism.... n seriously.... itz hard to draw dat line.... everyone has different lvl's of tolerance for each other.... at most times.... ego is inversely proportional to tolerance.... one of the challenges in life is to find dat universally acceptable lvl of egoism datz within the tolerance lvl of a majority of or even ALL ppl....

wow... itz hard to post something on an issue like dis.... i usually try to avoid stepping on other ppl's toes..... brings more trouble than anything else... n being the lazy person i am... i'll be too unmotivated to clear it up... which won't be gd.... but still.... maybe i may step on ur toes without me knowing.... so i'll juz apologise here for whichever incident if i did so.... i'm still on the quest to finding dat universally acceptable lvl of egoism... n i admit i do make mistakes.... so there... ^^

well... besides this particular issue.... i guess i haf nth much else to say abt todae... well... todae's QT is on the constant availability of God's grace to all who walk uprightly.... i guess i realli need dat especially in my current circumstances.... always being tired out lately for some unknown reason.... but still tho i slept reeeal early dis morning... waz still able to go thru the day not being too dead... well.. i guess datz a realli simple example of grace.... n to mb: i apologise for not being a dead fish... the guarantee didn't work.. haha...

ok... i guess i shall end here... til the nxt entry.... Proshyai...

reflections frm a guy who juz woke up....

juz woke up frm a urgently needed nap.... sch's tough...

well... woke up crawling out of bed again.... wed's the usual "almost late for sch" day... dunno y dat always happens.... it juz some "magical" thing about wednesdays....

nth much to write about todae.... maybe itz bcoz i juz woke up frm a nap.. haha.. if i can tink of anything i'll juz post again later......

well... today's QT is abt the interdependence of the church regarding each member of the church... well.. i don't tink itz juz the church... i tink every single organisation requires dat to function properly.... problem is... everyone's so caught up with themselves dat they dun see y they shld be dependent or y they shld be helping each other out... everywhere u hear the sad reality of back stabbing... curry favouring... blah blah blah... all dat nonsense.... but u know wat?? all these juz make interdependence in an organisation sound like perfect competition in the microeconomy... for those who dun do econz.... it means dat it makes interedependence juz a pipe dream.... an expectation of an organisation dat wouldn't happen in reality.... such is life n dat juz sux to me....

i tink the main root of the problem is pride.... as mentioned earlier ppl r too caught up with themselves to care abt others... be it whether they're working hard enuff to get the boss' attention for a promotion.... or be it studying n playing so hard dat u dun see someone nxt to u who realli needs help.... dis problem of pride is rife with examples.... n for one simple reason.... itz found everywhere!! call it human nature or wateva... dat much i accept... but such prideful tendencies CAN be suppressed... they say the sex drive is of human nature.... itz an "animal instinct" found in everyone.... well in guyz at least... haha.. anyway if dis "instinct" weren't suppressed u'll see everyone raping everyone else...

i tink itz not bcoz such pride cannot be suppressed but instead.... no one wants to do anything abt it.... it feels good to be bursting with self-esteem n proclaiming to others "hey! i'm the best! all the rest of u can go fly ur pathetic kites!"... with dat statement comes a sense of power.... an appealing advertisement to the huge elitist ego found in every human heart.... of course dis doesn't mean dat everyone shld go "hey man... i totally suck.... dun ask me to do anything bcoz i juz plain suck..." we need a certain lvl of self-esteem but like most thingz in life... a line has to be drawn....

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i guess datz all i haf to say abt dat.... i muz say dat it waz quite a long discussion(?) on dis topic of interdependence.... haha... well... dun see much of it ard so juz tot i'll comment on it... dun tink it'll make much of a diff tho.... the problem will always stay....

woah... been at dis entry for 1 hr now.. haha... deeep stuff... but i guess we need to tink abt such issues once in awhile.... anyway baq to todae... can onli rmb maths test.. haha... it waz not too gd.... but not too bad as well.... feels kinda farny when u know u're there but not there at the same time... haha... ("there" meaning at the passing level) thankfully waz able to do some integration to at least get some sympathy marks.. haha... thx again to ben for helping me out the nite b4 with some SIMPLE integration.... yesterday waz bad manz.... didn't even know how to integrate x^-3!! but yesterday waz yesterday.. haha... thankfully they stay dat way...

well... datz all i haf to say abt today... if i can tink of something else to talk abt i'll juz post later.... so til the nxt entry... xaire...

Acid nightmares....

phew... today waz another tough day.. hehe... reeealli tired n dazed now... somehow feel awake but still.... mind doesn't seem to be working properly...

day started out not too badly... onli dat i woke up at 6.50 n rushed me butt off to sch.. haha... still had time to do a bit of quiet time (QT) in the car tho.... today's devotional waz... quite intrigueingly... rather similar to me previous blog entry.. hehe... can go check it out here... juz click on today's date.... itz juz an online copy of the devotional i'm using for QT... anywayz.... again i'm reminded of relying on God instead of self.... well... to actually practice dis is actually kinda hard esp when u're caught up with the activities for the day....

niway had another "sprinkling" of "divine intervention" today.. haha... i waz not late for sch!!! haha... so interesting... the traffic lights were at the right colour at the right time.. haha... no chance dat all these happen by chance to me.. haha..

anyway the day started off not too badly... had gp n fernandez had her occassional bitz of humour.... she wasn't as bad as the beginning of the yr... dat time she waz realli.... irksome(?)... haha.... went thru compre... cheem stuffz..

had a slack slack PE lesson n the usual booooring dose of econz... then came chem prac! the highlight of the day... coz it waz the lowest point of the day.. haha... everythign waz wrong with me at chem prac.... can't realli explain y... it juz.... happened.... :/

started off the titration experiment in a mess... first titration forgot to add some stuff n emptied me whole burette into me conical flask while trying to look out for something dat wouldn't happen.... second titration waz alright.... n the thrid waz a nightmare... poured KI in.... then went to grab the measuring cylinder for the dilute sulphuric acid.... brought it to myself... knocked down the bottle of acid n spilled alllll over the table.... worksheet waz acidified... shirt n pants wet.... a little went into the mouth.... yuck.... rinsed me mouth like crazy n almost spilled some starch solution again.... grrr.... n then.... me thigh started getting itchy coz of the acid thingie on me pants.... itz the worst prac i ever done in my ENTIRE LIFE!! i waz/am in a veeeri sour mood.... wiped up me table n continued.... did the last titration n never touched any of the stuff EVER again....

second experiment wasn't any better.... had to weigh solid stuffz.... weighed too much for the first time.... had to redo.... then weighed too little on the second time!! itz like... it went frm one extreme to the other.... itz veri draining to do a prac when everything juz goes wrong.... *roar*... so juz copied readings frm other ppl n did all the claculation n juz got over with it...

tink itz over?? no mercy manz.... when cleaning up the stuffz.... waz capping the bottles for all the substances... then my "gd 'o fren" mr dil. sulphuric acid came along.... i tested the lid for the bottle of dil. sulphuric acid n found it waz quite tight.... well... i guess i gotta redefine wat tight is.... coz when i grabbed the lid n held it up the bottle juz dropped again.... thankfully the bottle waz already mostly emptied frm the first spill but still some spilled on the floor n table.... sighz... with frenz like this.. who needs enemies??

well... juz another day dat started well but ended badly.... not angry or anything.... juz reeeealli sianed out... now i'm almost a "dead fish" -quote mb-.... anyway juz tot i'll make an entry bright n early b4 i realli become a dead fish after studying n pia-ing hw.... juz hope dat nth goes wrong at home.... so til the nxt entry.... adios....

PS: to mb... ur blog nv inspired me to start one... i waz tinking of having one b4 u even started urz.. haha...

tired siaz...

woah... itz been a reeeeealli challenging day todae.... had to slog thru todae.... i'm veri thankful to haf made it thru so far tho.. hehe... niway juz tot i'll make an entry b4 i start on my hw... n hopefully revision.. haha...

well... my yesterday sortof ended dis morning.. hehe... waz done with my hw onli at abt 2 something in the wee hrs of the morning b4 i hit the sack.... waz up 4 hrs later.... waz realli tired n didn't realli tink i could go thru todae.... but as usual... the quiet time in the car nv ceases to amaze me.... itz like everytime i read an entry in the devotional for dat day... it seems to be totally relevant to my situation at dat time....

anyway read a veri familiar verse frm isaiah 40.... "and those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength.. they shall mount up with wings like eagles... they shall run and not be weary... they shall walk and not faint...." whe i saw dat i waz like "wow.... zhun4 siaz".... haha... niway tho it waz a veri familiar verse dat i see all the time.... it still reminded me of my reliance on God to pull me thru the day....

well... went thru sch tired.... even felt a little depressed for awhile until dat verse popped into my mind again..... and thank God for frenz in sch too.... nv cease to perk me up even when i'm down n out.... managed to survive thru the day w/o the urge to take early leave.... haha... datz.... amazing..... haha..

i guess sometimes we're inclined to tink "hey... dis is juz normal.... to be able to survive thru the day like dat.... itz juz dat hidden cache of energy datz waiting to be released when u're almost at ur limit...." to me i know myself veri well... i know dat i could not haf gone thru the day by my strength alone.... even if i could survive thru the day i would be half dead by the end of the day.... wouldn't even haf energy to write an entry now.. haha... bottomline: not self-reliance but divne intervention....

most ppl's perception of "divine intervention" is like Moses parting the red sea or someone juz getting struck by lightning during a clear day juz after he said something sacrilegious.... to me i feel dat divine intervention can come in small ways as well.... things like being able to stay up reeeal late to finish up assignments n still be alive enuff to actually crawl out of bed the nxt morning... or juz simply juz being able to stay alive during the lesson when everyone else is more or less in the twilight zone.... i'm glad to be able to appreciate the tiny intricacies to life....

juz tot i'll write abt dis for today coz to me being able to survive the day is a tiny miracle in itself.. haha... thanks the God for the strength n the provision of gd frenz who juz brightened my day.... ^^

anyway i guess i haf ranted enuff.... if u haf read to the end of the entry... congratulations... juz tag my flooble n ur achievement will be acknowledged.. haha... (big deal... :P) anyway gtg eat dinner n STARDY.... so til the nxt entry... eh... tata(?).... ^^

it's a beautiful day...

wow.... wat a wonderful day today waz.. hehe... ^^

started off the morning in church.... waz combined sunday school with the sec sch ppl... had a sharing session frm nu tong (dunno if correct spelling... haha.. :P) she's one of the staff frm the orphanage in myanmar.... dis month's theme for the church is on the work of missions... n at the same time there's the church anniversary gg on dis week so some of our overseas brethren haf come over to join us in dis celebration... itz realli great to haf them over n juz talk to them... itz oso veri interesting to know watz gg on overseas straight frm the ppl themselves... itz a nice feeling to know dat our contributions to the missions work overseas is able to help other less fortunate ppl n at the same time... give them a chance to get to know the Lord a whole lot better.... bottomline: missions work is worth it anytime.... ^^

anyway got help frm tr chung todae to plan out me revision timetable... once again thx a lot for helping out... n i apologise for keeping him baq... he's kiddos aren't feeling too well but he still set aside some time to help me out.... many thx... ^^ anyway FINALLY got me revision timetable up but not yet running.. haha.. :P well... time to get down to serious business.... at least i know wat i wanna do each day of revision.... realli helps a lot.. hehe...

spoke with tze kern todae... had a gd chat n i guess i shld get down to finding out wat i wanna do with my life after NS pretty soon... hehe.. but i still wonder y everyone's under the impression dat i'll be joining me sis over in perth.. hmmm... *shrugz*

got baq home at abt 2pm.... slept til 6.30!! woohoo! 4 n a half hrs of napping goodness... ^^ then suddenly rmbed there's the fireworks thingie todae.. hehe... sortof rushed on down to the bay area.... onli to find numerous ppl there.. so many ppl parked on the road!! haha.. headed down to some carpark.... dunno where but somewhere nxt to clifford pier.... went high high up coz lower lvls no parking space.... but gd oso... got a better view of the fireworks... the fireworks were beautiful i muz say.... haf flower shapes.... the usual spherical shapes... etc etc... but the ones i like the most were the ones with trails.... realli looked like a meteor shower.... veri nice.. ^^ there r a few more but dunno how to describe.... but veri nice nonetheless... ^^ glad i made it for the show...

went for dinner after the thingie.... me dad waz saying in china their fireworks lasted for abt an hr.... datz crazy manz.... hearing all dat booming for 1 hr is realli.... untinkable.. haha... anyway went down to some place near golden shoe centre for dinner.... had fish dumping noodles.... waz gd.. ^^ after dat came home...

anyway xj's gg baq to US tmr.... all the best buddy.... will cya in person nxt yr but will still cya online.. haha... ^^ dun worry... one yr passes by veri quickly... ^^

well... juz thought i'll make an entry b4 i start on me revision schedule..... feel so motivated after coming up with a schedule.. hehe... hope dis will stay for the week at least.. hehe... "TOWARDS BETTER EXAM RESULTS!!" so til the nxt entry... sayonara... ^^

saturday.... no night fever tho....

saturdayz... saturdayz.... nv cease to refresh the mind body n soul.... a nice break frm the monotony of sch... meeting different ppl n doing veri different thingz...

today'z been an ok day.... woke up n slacked ard in the morning like all saturday mornings.... managed to catch pokemon for once.. wahahaha.. :P pokemon looks kiddy but has a veri interesting backdrop to it.... which kiddie would even bother abt evolution in a cartoon??? stuff like the importance n the gratification frm conservation of animals come to light in dis wonderful show.... ok... maybe i'm looking to much into it but pokemon nv ceases to make my morning.. haha.. :P

managed to catch a bit of the ndp dis afternoon.... but guess wat?? itz abt one n a half hrs since the programme started n the army guyz have not marched off the field yet.... blame it on the adverts.... so the army part of the parade went on n on n *poof!*... no.. it didn't become koko crunch but 2.15pm came along.... had to head off the church for YPG meeting.... so long for the fireworks n the wateva else.... n the marquee at the bottom read "women's hockey - netherlands vs south africa 3.00pm".. great.... oh well... i guess there muz some kind of a compromise when u've got commitments....

well.... waz a little late for YPG.... bad habit.... but dis month's theme for chairing is great... i like me church motto VERI much....

"God's kind of church
where God is touching lives
and ppl care for ppl"

i especially like the last line.... in a world where ppl dun care wat the heck happens to ur pet hamster.... itz veri sad for a person if no such care ever existed.... it can be found anywhere... be it in ur parents.. or ur closest frenz... or ur colleagues... or drinking buddies(?)... well... to me it doesn't realli matter whether others practice this... but i make damn sure i do my part of the deal.... tho sometimes it hard to care abt others when u're down n out.... but therein is the challenge.... hmm... shldn't make dis into another lecture... had enuff for the week....

didn't get the YPG notes for todae.... so can onli roughly rmb wat waz said.... i guess i'm over reliant on notes... shld change.... but anyway the msg waz uplifting nonetheless... n kudos to chris.... he's done a gd job.. ^^

got me a WORKING copy of "Call of Duty" today.... me initial copy couldn't even install!! haha... came baq n tried it out.... real shhweeeet game.... graphics n story so far excellent.... a little tough tho.. hehe... anyway shldn't be playing too much for now... got prelims coming up.. haha.. :P oh well... yet another distraction to put off at home.... makes gg to the lib to study a greater necessity... haha...

had dinner with me folks again like every saturdae.... went to dis zi3 cha4 place at yishun.... had nice yum yum pork belly , watercress n some interesting basket thingie made with potato n tofu mashed together n fried to make a basket.... n had yi3 tian1 tu2 long2 ji4 playing on the tv at the same time.... it waz great.. haha...
chiobus + great story = gd dinnertime entertainment.... *cackle*

well.. didn't realli study todae.... another day wasted.... my bad.... sighz... oh well... gonna plan out me revision timetable tmr with tr chung.... hopefully it'll work.... esp with call of duty by my side... calling out for me everytime the com switch turns on.... bottomline: itz gonna be a challenging week.....

oh yeah.... happy bday to all who haf them dis weekend.... i guess i onli noe of jerm's, ced's n van's.... oh well... nonetheless happy bday to whoever it may concern.... ^^ not everyday dat i rmb ppl's bdayz n nv realli bring dis up... haha... i nv cease to amaze myself sometimes....

ok... b4 i extend the page length even further.... i guess i shall end here now... haha... fernandez will be veri proud abt dis entry... haha... :P "there's ample coverage n enuff development on each point" -quote quote- *cackle*.... ok.... so til the nxt entry.. ciao~... ^^

NEWS UPDATE~~!

hey hey ppl.... juz got an update dat the bananaphone song is not complete.... here's the addie to the full song....

http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/badgerphone.php

itz a flash animation.... check it out....
thx to hung wei for the info.. ^^ "it's been ard for ages" -quote hungwei-

ps: i like the gundam banana phone.. haha.. :P

Fridayzzzz..... TGIF!

juz woke up frm a 4 hr nap...... such luxuries can never be gotten unless itz a FRIDAY!! woohoo~~....

i luv my fridayz.... it marks the end of a week of work n monotony.... itz a day of rest... while waiting in anticipation for the weekends to come... and it helps that friay is me early day off frm sch.... ^^

despite todae being fri the 13th.... with all the hoo harz n the blah blah blahz... i tink it went pretty well for me.. ^^ wel... tho i started the day off tired... managed to somehow wake up... haha... had fun in sch todae.... doing silly (self-torturous) things like translation of britney songz to chinese.... dunno how i brought myself to doing dat.... perhaps reliving my pastime frm the past.. haha...
i called dis self torturous because i ended up getting "hw" frm tan weijie.... *grumble mumble*

had a few requests for lyrics for or singing the silly banana song.... so dumb.. haha.. dunno how i managed to catch the lyrics while laughing hysterically during dat segemnt in SG idol.... muz haf been veri "impactful"... haha... niway to all who want the lyrics... stop bugging me!! i'll post it here!..

Banana Phone
Ring x4 banana phone....
Ding x4 banana phone....
It comes in bunches...
I've got some hunches...
It's the best! x2
Ring x4 banana phone....
Ding x4 banana phone....

oooook? r u happy now?? *coughmichellebranchcough*
acting zibi again.... -_-;;;

wow... didn't know i could write so much abt todae.. haha... fernandez will be proud for today's entry... :P anyway sorry to yh for pang seh-ing u for the usual run.... didn't know u were so committed to it... i'm impressed.. ^^ i'll make up by running with u on wed n fri k? hehe... ^^ ok larz... dunno wat else to write abt... besides my nap... which is basically juz stoning with my eyes closed while sleeping on a bed... til the nxt entry... zai4 jian4... ^^

numero uno...

hehe.... hi ppl... juz tot of starting a blog...

muz be tinkin y i suddenly could be bothered to actually get a blog... well.. juz thought dat i shld get down to actually sortof "logging down" wat i've been doing with my life... coz itz easy to forget the impt lessons of yesterday when the worries n burdens or even the joy of the present n future come along.... n since i spend most of me time on the com.... itz more convenient to get a blog than a diary being the lazy person i am... *cackle*

anyway.... i guess i shld start writing abt my day... hehe...
well.. todae waz a tiring day.. dunno y i couldn't really wake up in the morning... had to slog n drag thru the day... well.. as usual.. ppl say i'm stoned... but todae i waz "more stoned then usual"!! -quote deb-.. oh well... itz one of those days... but all in all... itz a fine day... juz gotta get my butt down to doing some work later.. haha...

hmm... looks like i've written a lot.... fernandez wun be proud tho.. haha.. :P anyway i guess i'll end here.... til the nxt entry.. ciao~.. ^^