running out of titles... :/
heyoz ppl.... guess i'll juz blog for the last or perhaps the last few times b4 i go into a watery hell.. haha.... well... wat i'm tinking of writing abt todae may seem veri choy-ish due to itz veri nature..... but i guess sooner or later i've gotta put it down somewhere so when the occassion arises... at least i can rest assure dat wat i want to be done will be done..
dis "sudden" thought of writing abt such a topic is not an afterthought of the impending horrors n "risks" of NS... well maybe a bit.. haha... but i juz figured i shld record it down somewhere at least ppl noe abt it...
well enuff ranting.... i guess u ppl r wondering wat i wanna write abt.... well... may sound quite depressive but i'm actually gonna write abt me funeral arrangements in the event dat i cease to exist.... hehe... dun get the wrong idea dat i'm suicidal.... i juz feel dat i've gotta write it down somewhere coz i dunno wat tmr will bring...
well enuff abt dat.... well.. simply put i dun want me funeral to be solely a eulogy abt me life n blah blah blah.... i find it veri meaningless coz so wat if i lived a life like dat or the other? it wun make a diff even if ppl knew abt it... wat i would like is dat the vigils n the funerals would be more God focussed... focussing more on His goodness in my life if need be... but focussed on God nonetheless.... i believe datz wat's gonna make the difference in ppl's lives... not juz some simple, similarly human life like my own....
for once i'll be there in body n not in spirit.. haha... but i guess i wanna be treated as juz another of the worshippers in a worship service... where the focus is not on myself but rather on God....
well y do i wanna do dat? wouldn't it be a waste dat no one rmb's me? i tink not.... coz as i haf discussed in the previous entry, 6 billion haf and will continue to live on even without the knowledge of a person like me.... wat really matters i guess is dat i would wanna do wat i could not do in life... dat's to get ppl to believe in this religion or faith or God dat i haf gotten to know... dat way i can accomplish wat i could not accomplish when i was still existing in death....
in other words.. i guess wat i'm tinking of is a time of outreach... where more souls can be reached... and i guess it'll be better coz the pastors will be doing the outreach and would do a better job than i would... haha...
i guess most ppl wun understand y i stand up for me faith so much.... but i guess itz realli hard for me to explain and the onli way to know is to experience it for urself... we haf nth to lose rite? itz like during breaktime when we go to the canteen... we can say the queue's too long n i dun wanna queue up.... but if dat's the case we can nv get a chance at the food.... so even if the queue's long, as long as we line up we'll haf a chance at the food... and if u dun like it u can always drop out of the queue.... but at least u haf a chance.... i guess trying to understand n believe in a religion is abt the same concept.... we'll nv get to fulfillment if we dun even try....
frm wat i hear... many ppl do feel lost.... like there's a unfillable void in their lives or hearts... religion serves to fill dat void... to give purpose to our seemingly meaningless existence.... tink abt it... we can haf fun... get high... feel great... but after a night of sleep.... itz all gone.... n we feel empty all over again... and after awhile of getting the same high.... dat same form of high will feel empty all over again.... and i know dat feeling sux.... dat y religion's here to help....
of course i'm not trying to convert ppl here to Christianity.... everyone's entitled to their own beliefs.... but i believe most of us r living with veri materialistic and veri secular mindsets... which nv ever help to fill up dat void in our lives... to me, religion's the way to go in term's of mental stability and strength of character... and even providing purpose for existence.....
well i guess itz been a less distressing entry.. haha... well... i'll juz leave it as dis.... so til the nxt entry ppl... ciaoz.... ^^
dis "sudden" thought of writing abt such a topic is not an afterthought of the impending horrors n "risks" of NS... well maybe a bit.. haha... but i juz figured i shld record it down somewhere at least ppl noe abt it...
well enuff ranting.... i guess u ppl r wondering wat i wanna write abt.... well... may sound quite depressive but i'm actually gonna write abt me funeral arrangements in the event dat i cease to exist.... hehe... dun get the wrong idea dat i'm suicidal.... i juz feel dat i've gotta write it down somewhere coz i dunno wat tmr will bring...
well enuff abt dat.... well.. simply put i dun want me funeral to be solely a eulogy abt me life n blah blah blah.... i find it veri meaningless coz so wat if i lived a life like dat or the other? it wun make a diff even if ppl knew abt it... wat i would like is dat the vigils n the funerals would be more God focussed... focussing more on His goodness in my life if need be... but focussed on God nonetheless.... i believe datz wat's gonna make the difference in ppl's lives... not juz some simple, similarly human life like my own....
for once i'll be there in body n not in spirit.. haha... but i guess i wanna be treated as juz another of the worshippers in a worship service... where the focus is not on myself but rather on God....
well y do i wanna do dat? wouldn't it be a waste dat no one rmb's me? i tink not.... coz as i haf discussed in the previous entry, 6 billion haf and will continue to live on even without the knowledge of a person like me.... wat really matters i guess is dat i would wanna do wat i could not do in life... dat's to get ppl to believe in this religion or faith or God dat i haf gotten to know... dat way i can accomplish wat i could not accomplish when i was still existing in death....
in other words.. i guess wat i'm tinking of is a time of outreach... where more souls can be reached... and i guess it'll be better coz the pastors will be doing the outreach and would do a better job than i would... haha...
i guess most ppl wun understand y i stand up for me faith so much.... but i guess itz realli hard for me to explain and the onli way to know is to experience it for urself... we haf nth to lose rite? itz like during breaktime when we go to the canteen... we can say the queue's too long n i dun wanna queue up.... but if dat's the case we can nv get a chance at the food.... so even if the queue's long, as long as we line up we'll haf a chance at the food... and if u dun like it u can always drop out of the queue.... but at least u haf a chance.... i guess trying to understand n believe in a religion is abt the same concept.... we'll nv get to fulfillment if we dun even try....
frm wat i hear... many ppl do feel lost.... like there's a unfillable void in their lives or hearts... religion serves to fill dat void... to give purpose to our seemingly meaningless existence.... tink abt it... we can haf fun... get high... feel great... but after a night of sleep.... itz all gone.... n we feel empty all over again... and after awhile of getting the same high.... dat same form of high will feel empty all over again.... and i know dat feeling sux.... dat y religion's here to help....
of course i'm not trying to convert ppl here to Christianity.... everyone's entitled to their own beliefs.... but i believe most of us r living with veri materialistic and veri secular mindsets... which nv ever help to fill up dat void in our lives... to me, religion's the way to go in term's of mental stability and strength of character... and even providing purpose for existence.....
well i guess itz been a less distressing entry.. haha... well... i'll juz leave it as dis.... so til the nxt entry ppl... ciaoz.... ^^
da-wei waz not lazy @ 11:46 AM
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