the draw of melancholy...
juz been tinking quite a bit lately... most prob bcoz i've juz finished reading "tuesdays with morrie" some time dis week... itz a realli short book... i finished it in 2 sittings... but still it presents the real barebone issues dat we haf to deal with in life in a veri simple but nonetheless profound way... little catch phrases like "when u learn to die, u learn to live." or "love wins. love always wins." to name a couple... in a way itz stuff dat we alreadi noe... but itz in the beauty of the perspective frm which the author puts it dat realli draws me in...
datz the issue dat i haf tinking abt lately... y do i haf dat strange draw towards melancholy? it is when i truly feel melancholic deep down dat i realli appreciate something... be it a book... or a deed... n i'm drawn to dat kind of feeling.... n to me itz kinda strange... if nt a little disturbing... perhaps itz bcoz it makes me feel human.. or simply it juz makes me feel... but y i find it disturbing is bcoz i tink many other ppl r more drawn towards other kinds of emotions like euphoria... which i tink is more healthy n better for the soul than being constantly filled with melancholy....
perhaps there's a small part of us dat it drawn toward melancholic emotions... the onli diff is dat itz more pronounced in some than in others... n some others may even haf yet to realise such an attraction to such an emotion.... unfortunately, or perhaps otherwise, i guess i do haf an exaggerated attraction to melancholy... well personally i dun tink itz a healthy emotion coz tho it makes me feel... but at the same time it wat makes me look worn out n listless to other ppl... n ironically in time, i wun be able to feel any other emotion....
well... of course i can't quell this draw towards melancholy... itz juz like trying to ask a veteran hobbyist to give up his hobby... but at the same time i guess i shld experience other emotions to the fullest... i could try happiness, but for me it doesn't realli last long enuff for melancholy to get baq at me...or perhaps i could try camaraderie, but it juz wun work out without frenz ard... but of course... "all this is hypothetical" to quote yh.... i wouldn't noe whether they'll work out if i juz dun try... so yeah... i'll juz leave it as dat..
well datz it for dis entry... til the nxt entry... ciaoz...
datz the issue dat i haf tinking abt lately... y do i haf dat strange draw towards melancholy? it is when i truly feel melancholic deep down dat i realli appreciate something... be it a book... or a deed... n i'm drawn to dat kind of feeling.... n to me itz kinda strange... if nt a little disturbing... perhaps itz bcoz it makes me feel human.. or simply it juz makes me feel... but y i find it disturbing is bcoz i tink many other ppl r more drawn towards other kinds of emotions like euphoria... which i tink is more healthy n better for the soul than being constantly filled with melancholy....
perhaps there's a small part of us dat it drawn toward melancholic emotions... the onli diff is dat itz more pronounced in some than in others... n some others may even haf yet to realise such an attraction to such an emotion.... unfortunately, or perhaps otherwise, i guess i do haf an exaggerated attraction to melancholy... well personally i dun tink itz a healthy emotion coz tho it makes me feel... but at the same time it wat makes me look worn out n listless to other ppl... n ironically in time, i wun be able to feel any other emotion....
well... of course i can't quell this draw towards melancholy... itz juz like trying to ask a veteran hobbyist to give up his hobby... but at the same time i guess i shld experience other emotions to the fullest... i could try happiness, but for me it doesn't realli last long enuff for melancholy to get baq at me...or perhaps i could try camaraderie, but it juz wun work out without frenz ard... but of course... "all this is hypothetical" to quote yh.... i wouldn't noe whether they'll work out if i juz dun try... so yeah... i'll juz leave it as dat..
well datz it for dis entry... til the nxt entry... ciaoz...
da-wei waz not lazy @ 7:58 PM
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