I'm back~~
phew.. itz been many a month since i've been blogging... i guess most ppl deem it as dead... even me.. haha.. so y the sudden to blog again? well as i haf mentioned frm the beginning of me journey of blogging... itz meant to be a record of me thoughts dat i can refer baq to in future... coz if i write down me thoughts on a piece of paper i'll juz lose it somewhere when i wanna read it again... hehe...
well anyway... juz thought i'll write down me thoughts on trust... more specifically trust in God... y the sudden inspiration to write on such a subject matter? well today at ypg we were discussing abt the realities of life focussing specifically on stress points in life.... n i figured the points brought up were quite relevant to my current circumstance in life now... most of the stuff was taken frm 2 Corinthians in the bible.... where the apostle Paul waz recounting his struggles physically, mentally n spiritually as well... where he waz burdened beyond measure n despaired even to death.... while at the same time being able to say dat he does not trust in himself but places his trust in God n even to the point of a definite assurance of God deliverance.... i tink itz realli something...
well in my case... i guess my 6 months in NS hasn't all been a bed of roses... itz been burden after burden after burden... altho there were breaks in between... but the military, being wat it is, has made me course all so disorganised n we r expected to perform for wateva we haf not trained up enuff for.... the burden to perform without proper preparation is a veri real daily occurrence for me... n i find that more often than not i tend to trust in my own strength instead of God's provision... everyday i'm focussing on "oh no... i dun tink i can pass tmr's evolution with my current ability.." n i find dat such thoughts realli suck me dry mentally.. everyday i live in apprehension... n somehow God in His grace squares things up for me even in my lack of trust... thanks be to God for His ever faithful hand in my life...
my thoughts were centred on my inability n sometimes even when i pray dat i'll commit these inadequacies to God, my thoughts will return to my inadequacies... so altho today's lesson in ypg isn't a new one.. but i'm challenged again seriously to learn wat it means to trust totally in the Lord... to lay aside my inadequacies n trust wholly in His provision...
even as i trust in the Lord.. i guess i shld learn wat it means to trust solely in His provision instead of trusting dat He'll see to it dat wateva outcome we desire will come to pass... as is the usual human perception of trust.. juz as an example.. in my case instead of trusting in the Lord dat He will help me to pass me physical tests in NS dat i'm nt good in at all.. as is the usual way most ppl trust the Lord.. y not i trust dat the Lord will provide for me for dis tests no matter wat the outcome.. as long as God is involved in wateva i do... i tink dat is a more appropriate way of trusting God... well i'm nt implying dat we shld be trusting in the Lord in something more solid like provision instead of outcome so as to avoid disappointment... but sometimes trusting in such outcomes r nt within wat God wants for our lives n thus they become misplaced trust...
so i guessthe bottomline is dat we shld place our trust in wateva we do solely in God's provision for the task... n carry on with the task to the best of our ability.. while looking at the outcome of the task but instead looking at God's hand in bringing us thru with the task... n the outcome shldn't matter coz by faith we understand dat all things work together for good to those who love Him, to those who r called according to His purpose... so may we ever grow in our trust in God's provision...
well b4 i sign off... i wrote a little eh... poem? verse? i oso dunno... coz it doesn't like any of those... but itz meant to look like one.. so bleah.. haha... anyway to those who dunno wat's a morning glory, itz something to do with clouds... check out wikipaedia... i dunno how to explain.. haha.. :P
well hope u can appreciate n at least understand me feeble attempt at trying to appear intellectual... haha.... well.. til the nxt entry... ciaoz... ^^
well anyway... juz thought i'll write down me thoughts on trust... more specifically trust in God... y the sudden inspiration to write on such a subject matter? well today at ypg we were discussing abt the realities of life focussing specifically on stress points in life.... n i figured the points brought up were quite relevant to my current circumstance in life now... most of the stuff was taken frm 2 Corinthians in the bible.... where the apostle Paul waz recounting his struggles physically, mentally n spiritually as well... where he waz burdened beyond measure n despaired even to death.... while at the same time being able to say dat he does not trust in himself but places his trust in God n even to the point of a definite assurance of God deliverance.... i tink itz realli something...
well in my case... i guess my 6 months in NS hasn't all been a bed of roses... itz been burden after burden after burden... altho there were breaks in between... but the military, being wat it is, has made me course all so disorganised n we r expected to perform for wateva we haf not trained up enuff for.... the burden to perform without proper preparation is a veri real daily occurrence for me... n i find that more often than not i tend to trust in my own strength instead of God's provision... everyday i'm focussing on "oh no... i dun tink i can pass tmr's evolution with my current ability.." n i find dat such thoughts realli suck me dry mentally.. everyday i live in apprehension... n somehow God in His grace squares things up for me even in my lack of trust... thanks be to God for His ever faithful hand in my life...
my thoughts were centred on my inability n sometimes even when i pray dat i'll commit these inadequacies to God, my thoughts will return to my inadequacies... so altho today's lesson in ypg isn't a new one.. but i'm challenged again seriously to learn wat it means to trust totally in the Lord... to lay aside my inadequacies n trust wholly in His provision...
even as i trust in the Lord.. i guess i shld learn wat it means to trust solely in His provision instead of trusting dat He'll see to it dat wateva outcome we desire will come to pass... as is the usual human perception of trust.. juz as an example.. in my case instead of trusting in the Lord dat He will help me to pass me physical tests in NS dat i'm nt good in at all.. as is the usual way most ppl trust the Lord.. y not i trust dat the Lord will provide for me for dis tests no matter wat the outcome.. as long as God is involved in wateva i do... i tink dat is a more appropriate way of trusting God... well i'm nt implying dat we shld be trusting in the Lord in something more solid like provision instead of outcome so as to avoid disappointment... but sometimes trusting in such outcomes r nt within wat God wants for our lives n thus they become misplaced trust...
so i guessthe bottomline is dat we shld place our trust in wateva we do solely in God's provision for the task... n carry on with the task to the best of our ability.. while looking at the outcome of the task but instead looking at God's hand in bringing us thru with the task... n the outcome shldn't matter coz by faith we understand dat all things work together for good to those who love Him, to those who r called according to His purpose... so may we ever grow in our trust in God's provision...
well b4 i sign off... i wrote a little eh... poem? verse? i oso dunno... coz it doesn't like any of those... but itz meant to look like one.. so bleah.. haha... anyway to those who dunno wat's a morning glory, itz something to do with clouds... check out wikipaedia... i dunno how to explain.. haha.. :P
"Riding the morning glory;riding the winds of trust.
Soaring up on rolling winds;
soaring up on faithful wings.
Looking out to lands afar;
Looking up to our Abba."
-Watashi
well hope u can appreciate n at least understand me feeble attempt at trying to appear intellectual... haha.... well.. til the nxt entry... ciaoz... ^^
da-wei waz not lazy @ 10:13 PM
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