exam perks n "the snippet"..

hey hey ppl... hehe... figured i shld update more often after the prelims to make up for the times dat i haven't updated me blog during the prelims... niway always kena msg's frm ppl to update blog one so might as well.. hehe..

anyway yup... itz the first week baq in sch after the prelims... everyone's feeling kinda edgy n depressed.... due to the uncertainty n insecurity of getting an alright grade for the exams... well.. juz wanna share wat i read in today's devotional... realli relevant n encouraging for the current circumstance... hehe...

juz wanna highlight a couple of the verses in the passage... namely verses 6 n 7... "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Jesus Christ." in these times of great stress n pressure (i.e. exam period.. esp O's n A's..) there's always something to be anxious abt... like getting gd grades... finishing up the revision for exams in time for the actual exams itself... fear of burnout... irritation of fatigue... wat we all need is peace frm all these worries n prayer provides this peace...

it doesn't mean dat once we pray all our problems will juz dissolve n resolve themselves n nv reappear ever again... instead it grants us a peace of mind even when we haf to face these anxieties head-on.... realli helps to clear up a boggled mind n oso proves to release the strain frm the mental well-being... haha...

juz a short snippet of my thoughts everytime i'm stoning on the bus... most of the time we feel like we dun look so bad.... dat sometimes when a task calls for charisma we're more than up to it.... but somehow i feel dat maybe i'm not dat special afterall.. maybe i'm juz an average dave with the guy-nxt-door look.. well.. i'm not saying i'm suffering a bout of depression or some inferiority complex... neither am i saying dat i feel under-appreciated... "i know how to be abased... n i know how to abound..." haha... i guess i'll be abased with my current physical appearance n strive to abound in my mental n spiritual maturity.... but sometimes these thoughts of so-called self-awareness do surface...

itz juz a hunch... but i guess ppl with gf's/bf's dun feel too insecure abt how they look or how they r coz they know they're appreciated by whoever their companion is... i guess datz wat draws most ppl to start up a relationship.... to gain some form of appreciation frm someone else at a more personal level.... but then again... i may be wrong... coz i've nv been in one myself.. haha..

well.. datz a short snippet... kinda silly tinking abt dis kinda stuff coz the fact is dat i dun haf a gf n most probably wun get one in the nxt few yrs.. haha... n datz dat.... dun tink i'm ready for it too... tho the opportunity for one is tempting enuff.... but enuff of dat.. haha...

baq to the blog.... well... to all ppl who're doin their final-yr exams or promos in abt a week's time.... all the best!! dun fret if u've haven't finished ur revision.... juz try ur best during the week n sit for the exams nxt week.... doesn't matter if the grades aren't too gd or aren't up to expectations.... at least u know u've done ur best.... if u know u haven't done ur best... well... try again the nxt rnd of exams.. ^^... for those taking their O's n especially A's.... itz a different matter... haha... coz i guess there wun be a nxt time...

hmm.. didn't know i could qrite dis much... expected a short entry.... well anyway itz the exam period now n i juz wish every student all the best! work hard.... play harder! ^^ ciaoz~...

itz been another 8 dayz...

hey hey ppl.... baq by popular demand..... coz increase in supply is crucial to price equilibrum.... lalala~ ok.. enuff econz... i'll juz shoot myself one of these dayz.. haha... niway yuppo... itz been another 8 dayzzz since the last update.. haha... so i tink the blog is crying out for some attention frm me....

well aniway shld update abt the week.... had some left over papers frm mon to wed... weren't so bad i guess.... wed was a day to rmb manz.... bio mcq = last paper.... after handing in paper... everyone happy happy.... then suddenly.... "eerr.... ok... can all bio students make ur way to LT2.... we haf to check ur scripts..." manz.... dat waz the most well-placed anti-climax i haf EVER came across in my entire life (so far)... well... abt the scripts.... dun ask...

so niway off with boring exams n on with fun stuff... went to sentosa on thursday... supposed to be a class outing.... but sudden;y turned out to be a guyz day out... wasn't too fond of it at first coz i waz expected a "class" gathering... but in the end... turned out not too badly... had a realli dark tan.... a gd swim... blistering hot sand... n learnt how to play bridge! wow.... wouldn't imagine being able to learn dat with a big crowd.... but anyway.... had steamboat dinner... some of the gerz came along... wasn't too bad.... thankful dat i chose "ah-peh" liang teh over "eeeew..." "kiwi" juice.... played some arcade.... overshot budget for arcade... but all in the name of fun n slackiness b4 the nxt week arrives...

friday waz fun.... met up with almost the entire g force again after sooooo long.... had a solid 4 hrs of LAN... haha... nv played so long for a long time.. haha... wonderful dayz... blew 10 bucks on LAN... but all in the name of fun n slackiness!! then went to plaza sing(h) to meet ben n jerm.... blew anotehr 15 over bucks on dinner... all in the name of fun n slackiness again... n played arcade after dat all in the name of fun n slackiness once more... haha...

well niway made it baq to YPG on saturdayz again..... sooo happy... been missing it for 2 weeks alreadi... last week waz my salah... haha... niway the msg during ypg waz preached for so many times alreadi.... but still itz a gd msg to preach.... itz abt bearing witness... somethign like sharing with others ur faith... i guess wat i learnt waz dat our part is to share with others abt wat we haf experienced frm God.... a tthe same time itz not our job to persuade n convince other ppl to believe... i find dat point veri relevant to us as Christians because everytime we wanna share our faith with someone... we're always concerned with whether the person at the opp end will accept wat we're sharing with them or not... i guess i feel dat way oso bcoz i haf dis incessant fear of ppl tinking i'm boring n silly to talk abt dis kinda stuff.... but another point noted is dat itz not abt myself when i share... itz abt God n i shldn't be bothered abt wat otehr ppl tink of me when i genuinely share abt my faith...

well i guess it all comes with practice.... can learn abt these truths but still wun be able to get over it unless i try it out n try to get over dat fear.... but yeah... as usual... easier said than done... but still i'll try....

had some tea thingie after the YPG session.... got to sit ard with ppl i dun usually talk to... kinda spoke with them a bit... tho not like chit-chat but yeah... itz a gd start.... shld try to talk to more ppl... but most of the time opportunities like this dun open up.... had a gd time eating n drinking n fellowshipping....

celebrated mike's bday in the evening.... was a simple event... nth bombastic or explosive but yeah... waz still gd.... tho had to eat BK again when i had eaten it the day b4.... niway thank God for frenz in church who bother to organise this kind of event for each other.... :)

niway waz tinking how God realli changes ppl juz last nite... juz a short thought but yeah... itz veri real.... at least to me.. hehe... waz tinking abt how my fren waz b4 becoming a christian n after..... drastic change...

on to sunday.... waz a gd time of meeting up with ppl in church... spoke with haran... after a looong time... if u (haran) so happen to stumble upon dis blog... juz wanna say dun worry abt it... juz carry on with wat u gotta do n entrust the rest to the Lord.... :)

juz did up me study plan with tr chung again dis afternoon... hehe... well.. guess dis rnd of exams will be the most disciplined time i ever had in my entire life... nv realli got serious abt studying in my entire life.... dis is the first time ever.... hopefully not the last... haha... juz hope it works out.... juz do my part by studying n rely on God's help for the strength datz needed but i don't haf.... *cracks knuckles n neck*

guess it hasn't been a thought-provoking n perception-changing week but juz hope i can get some new inspiration in the weeks ahead.... *crosses fingers*... itz been a long entry so i guess i'll stop here... tag me board if u've read the whole thing... achievement will be acknowledged.... ^^ so til the nxt update... cyaz~

reflections after 13 dayz of silence...

eeeelllo ppl.... hehe... i'm FINALLY baq after 13 dreadful dayz... haha... i bet u all wanna know watz gg on with me life now?? eh.... guess not.. haha.. :P oh btw.... fritz: snow skin mooncakes rock man!! haha... the chewy, soft n smooooth texture is juz *SLURP*... :P~~~ n yk.... i dun tink dat would liken to *meow*....

ook... wow... itz been a hard week manz... so many papers.... so little studying... even wasted 2 DAYZ at fatty's place.... actually one but the whole of the nxt day waz spent recuperating frm killing too many silly virtual gruntz in DYNASTY WARRIORS 4! my goodness.... yk... u had to tempt me... u juz had to.... *ROAR*...

niway on with the week.... had first paper on monday (no prizes for correct guesses)... chem prac.... wasn't too bad... the onli bad part waz actually WAITING for it to start.... i mean... waiting for 2 HOURS for the official opening of the prelims is juz... juz... head-thumping... adrenaline-pumping... eh... nvm... bottomline: waiting = wrong... juz all wrong...

so yader yader yader went thru the week with boring, some overtly mentally taxing papers... even abt 1 or 2 dat r not fit for humans to do.... at least humans who nv studied.. haha.. :P aaaaaaand finally... here i am in a saturday (today)... had paper dis morning n ate breakfast out with me mom (delicious, *slurp*-worthy dim sum)... went home n napped.... n woke up at 2.30!! sighz... couldn't make it for church... sianed... so here i am trying to past time by blogging... since ppl haf been wanting me to update.. haha...

well... niway watz more meaningful behind the prelims dis week waz actually a chance to relearn wat i haf lost for almost 2 yrs.... it waz perhaps a slight renewal of my consciousness of God in the prelims.... i guess i lost dis consciousness of Him ever since i got into SAJC... hehe.... no offence to me frenz there for the first 3 months but yeah... i dun blame them... i can onli blame myself for enjoying myself too much... by ravelling in satisfying my social wants dat i haf forgotten abt bringing God into my life... n ever since then it waz a downward spiral.... relatively bad O's results... not getting to sch of choice (SOC?? haha.. :P)... events juz took a turn for the worst.... or so i thought then...

itz been a hard 1 yr for me last yr... trying to get to grips with not getting baq into my SOC... at the same time adapting to the whole new world of NYJC... while wishing i had been posted to CJ instead where all my frenz are... it got quite bad.... but thank God i didn't turn into a veri bitter hearted person... i waz juz... i dun tink depressed but juz demoralised... itz times like these dat i tend to wallow in self-pity n turn into a self-centered freak questioning the veri existence of L1R5 limits to entrance to a JC... itz dis self-centeredness dat, i tink, killed my sensitivity to God....

then one yr has past... on to 2004... where i juz recovered from pulling out of this silly little "trauma" if u may call it... itz been another tough 8 months... not so much socially (i tink i'm better off socially instead...) as spiritually.... finding new frenz in itself is not a bad thing.... but i guess the self-centeredness stuck onto to me for most part of the 8 months... even tho i tried renewing dis consciousness of God in my life by trying to pick up doing my quiet time again... it juz didn't do the trick....

not until this week.... i find dat i'm actually conscious of God at the start of everyday n before the start of most of the papers... n i'm happy for myself because of dat... i'm happy dat i dun haf to force myself to remember to pray b4 every paper n thus making it look like a chore or ritual to do dat... i'm happy dat at least i'm slightly baq on track in my journey of life with God...

i guess, for now, good grades aren't so much of a concern for me.... not because i'm sooper confident dat i'll get them.. but because i found something better.... something dat wun last me onli for dis silly exam or the nxt... but for life... i'm confident dat dis consciousness of God in my life will help me get thru many of life's little hiccups as well as "traumas"... anyway the grades for prelims wun realli matter for entrance to uni yah?? haha.. :P

well... mentioned earlier dat i thought getting into NY waz a bad thing... truth is i didn't realli fancy the idea of gg frm a so-called "english" school to another so-called "cheena" sch at first... but after one full yr of getting to know the culture n the people there... my verdict is, which btw has been endorsed by mr handsome n mr tee, "it doesn't matter which sch u're in... watz more impt is the ppl whom u meet n interact with everyday in sch"...

frankly speaking... i still dun like the way NY is being run... but i dun care.. as long as my frenz n teachers aren't all (n i emphasise ALL) bitches i'm fine... doesn't matter if i'm in SA or NJ... itz the ppl who r with u dat matters... n i find dat me classmates r a veri colourful bunch of ppl n there's no place else where u can get a similar chemistry of ppl....

if i had been posted to my SOC... or if i had accepted the approved appeal into my SOC... i would NEVER EVER have learnt these lessons n i will NEVER be exposed to such a diverse range of characters like me classmates... everyday is interesting with all the silly antics n dialogue among ourselves.... these moments r priceless... i'm sure most of u ppl can identify with wat i'm saying... coz each class in each school has itz own unique chemistry... n i haf God to thank for allowing me to learnt these wonderful lessons...

well.. itz been a loooong entry.... been at it for 1.5 hrs!! woah.. haha... but yeah... itz been a wonderful time of reflection n i'm more content with my current state in life now.... hehe... well... guess i shld stop here... so til the nxt entry... cyaz~.. ^^

PS: if u managed to read to the end of the entry, give urself a pat on the back n tag me board.... ur achievement will be acknowledged.. haha... n i'm tinking of changing the layout of me blog... so if anyone has any suggestions pls tag me or tell me in preson or something... juz let me know.. haha.. :D cheers...

pep talk for the weary... (coz of studies.. hehe)

heyoz.... juz thought i'll post me thoughts here todae.... juz so dat i wun forget.... interesting thought todae tho... realli helps with decision making n perhaps even as some form of motivation.. hehe..

well.. niway wun be talking abt the daily bread devotionals todae.... instead will be talkin abt something thought frm sunday sch in the morning.... well.. itz taken frm Philippians 1:10... namely the first part of the verse: "...that u may approve the things that r excellent..."

"approve" here (according to some reference) means testing a metal... context here is we shld discern between wat we shld be doing n wat we wanna do but isn't so gd for us.... n continueing on with the rest of the part of the verse... we shld be doing things dat r EXCELLENT for us... n of course is approving to God.... as seen here....

i waz tinking maybe i shld be using dat as me form of motivation to study.... doing wat is best for myself so as to make the best of me life n do something dat's approving to God... well... i guess studying's approving to God... coz studying's a form of doing something gd with ur life n preparing u to do stuff datz relevant in ur life in future... i shall learn to be diligent... haven't been for most if not all of me life... so will start now at least.. hehe..

i appreciate the point dat discernment is not juz looking at watz good n watz bad.... itz in fact looking at watz better n watz best for ourselves... and choosing watz excellent for us in life... i guess i always had a shallow view of wat discernment is.... today's chairing in sunday sch was a real eye-opener...

oh well... itz been gd pondering over this stuff.... n i feel motivated to study all over again.. haha... gd gd.... weekends help make my week... itz the week dat spoils itself.... wateva dat means.. haha.. :P

niway will strive to make advancements in bite-sized technology.... so til the nxt entry.... cya... ^^

fren flen fwenzzz..... again....

heyoz.... another sporadic post.... will try to keep it short... gotta clear up the guilt of not studying enuff todae b4 gg out.. haha.. :P

anyway as usual will be talkin abt today's post.... n guess wat?? itz abt frenz again... haha..

will be talking abt different stuff abt frenship.... go n read the devotional.... i tink we all haf met some person or ppl like dat in the devotional b4.... i know i haf.... another of me sad memories of shenzhen, china... *sighz...*

i dunno but do u sometimes feel dat some ppl ard u r juz ur frenz bcoz they dun want u to feel bad by leaving u out of the grp? frankly speaking i do feel dat way sometimes.... but as usual... i feel dat wat ppl do ard u is out of control... but wat u do is totally in ur control... so i tink we shld be a genuine fren to all ard us... tho sometimes realistically speaking itz hard to be dat way.... but as most things in life... we need an ideal situation dat most of the time is impossible to attain as a form of goal to work towards to.... perfect competition in economics is a perfect example.... pun intended or not... u decide....

well... sometimes itz hard to be dat fren oso bcoz ppl dun want u to be part of their grp.... well in dat case... i guess dun force urself in... go somewhere else where u're appreciated... again another ideal situation coz sometimes the ego in us makes us want to be part of the "in" grp... nth wrong in dat.... but i guess we shld know our place in dis veri big world.... we can't be everywhere we want to be sometimes... sometimes we get into the grp sometimes we don't...

niway promised to make dis short.. hehe... i tink itz almost reaching the highest limit for bite-sized techonology.... but anyway lesson learnt: ALWAYS cherish ur frenz ard u... u'll nv know when they'll go.... sometimes forever.... i learnt it the slightly harder way.. dun go the same path.... so til the nxt entry.... cyaz~

slightly longer todae.. hehe...

heyoz.... had a bad nite last nite.... so didn't realli update.. hehe... paiseh.... now updates becoming more n more sporadic.... *more incentive to drop by everyday... kekeke.. :P*

well... anyway as usual... will talk abt todae's reading.... but b4 dat... haf to put dis as a record... i started studying todae.... which makes it a new record... the previous record waz one week b4 the exams... *the book is on the table...*

okok.. on to today's reading... so sorry dat the previous links were to the bible verses.... i suddenly figured dat linking to the actual daily bread entry would be more relevant.. haha... *silly me...*

anyway today's reading is veri relevant coz it involves frenship n relationships with ppl ard us.... quite frankly speaking.... i tink i'm closer to me frenz outside church than those in church.... maybe itz the age grp thingie.... but the fact is dat.... veri often i tink to myself whether i shld keep at dat or whether i shld get to know the ppl in church better.... but today's reading has been something i pondered over before.... dat those feeling well dun haf to be healed but those who r sick....

well.. itz doesn't mean dat i dun get any frenz in church but i guess i wouldn't be much help if i made frenz more with ppl in church than with ppl outside of chruch who realli need a fren... but y do i bother to mix ard with ppl who r non-Christians? coz i wanna break dat stigma dat Christians r bounded by do's n don'ts n bcoz of dat we r different frm everyone else... heh... in fact we could wateva we wanted n still get away with it.... coz we're not bounded by any law or rules...

the thing is we CHOSE to live the way we live... to live in a way dat is moral n upright in God's eyes.... we can go ard havocing n sinning all we want n God can do nothing abt it coz our sins haf been forgiven thru Jesus death on the cross... i may not be exemplary but i do try my best to live in a way dat i wun grieve God....at the same time i dun wanna be a bigot (new word?? check the dictionary... ^^) n condemn everyone to hell coz i know God has saved me n i'm gg to heaven anyway... i'm a sinner like everyone else.... onli diff is dat i try to live in the way God wants me to live.... to be someone who is of use to Him....

well... i juz hope dat in the process of befriending non-believers... i'll be able to convince them to Christianity.... but yeah.. i guess i gotta brush up on me life first... takes time but i hope i will get to dat point some time soon....

ok... guess dis is a deprovement frm bite-sized technology.. haha... oh well... guess i haf many thoughts on dis.... but nvm.. i'll juz end here.... so cya on the nxt entry... ^^