back! on a different track....

yo ppl.... guess itz gdbye to dis silly hiatus thingie.... come to tink of it i tink i was juz lazy... haha.. :P would haf developed in somewhat the same way even w/o having such a thing as a hiatus.... maybe juz dat i reflect less.... well anyway i haf a lot of thoughts to write out but i guess i'll juz reflect on them one at a time first.... can't rush thru without some warm up after nt writing for so long yah? hahz...

"If I could take over this world that we're in,
I wanna reach out to every human being.

I'd take all the sorrows from every goodbye,
I'll shed all the tears so no one ever needs to cry.

But nobody cares for me
Nobody here needs me
A love to share but no nobody dares
Nobody cares for me

I'll summon the oceans to drown every pain
I wanna be shelter to the countless in shame.

Erase every conflict from every divide
I wanna give every bit of me unti i die singin'

But nobody cares for me
Nobody here needs me
A love to share but no nobody dares
Nobody cares for me."

--"A Love to Share" by Rivermaya

been paying more attention to song lyrics recently... well at least the slower songs coz either i can't keep up with the lyics in faster songs or the singer's diction is juz so horrible.. haha... but anyway... itz been interesting to find meaningful lyrics in unexpected places... well dis song isn't one of them but i did feel some sort of connection with dis song... initially at least.... it was until i thought thru the lyrics more rationally dat i tink dis song's chorus juz contradicts itself...

at first i realli understood wat the lyricist was saying... when u're juz trying to be gd to everyone but everyone doesn't give a damn... in fact i do feel like dat at times... but upon further thought... i tink itz quite contradictory to tink like dat.... well to me, if u realli love someone or something, u would juz simply pour out ur love to him/her/it n nt expect any in return... true love, to me, is unconditional n may veri well be one-sided in some cases... but in the case of dis song, the lyrics give a sense of "i do love everyone, but y doesn't anyone even care abt me?" well if it were merely a care for others then it would be understandable, but to "love" would mean a much higher level of regard in terms of consideration for others...

perhaps we all use the word "love" too loosely in our everyday conversation... love has lost itz grandeur, itz significance n perhaps even itz sacredness (nv knew it was a proper word til i checked it out.. haha..) i guess itz time to retink our regard for dis word... to return it to the same reverrence we had when we scolded our first vulgarity n felt like u've juz done the worst thing in the entire world to the person u scolded.... well... take dat feeling to the other extreme n revere the word "love" as the best compliment u can give anyone or anything n shld nt be used lightly....

so wat then is love? well given my religious background, naturally i draw my benchmark frm the bible... there's a verse dat says "greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one's life for his friends." so personally my benchmark would be "would i be ready to sacrifice myself for another person?" if i can truly believe dat i would do juz dat when it comes down to the crunch... onli then can i say i love dat person...

well i guess i'll keep it as dat... dun wanna write too much coz it'll be too wordy to read again.. haha... so til the nxt entry... ciaoz~... ^^