living/leaving issues...

heyz ppl.. didn't expect another entry so soon rite? haha... well... inspiration doesn't come at regular intervals.... so yeah...

well.. dis week has been a week of bumming ard n waiting for calls.... n i guess i pretty much wasted my time dis week... but i guess i gotta start tinking abt stuff in my free time now to enrich myself.... n start reading as well.. haha... need to get rid of me laziness n i guess reading is a realli gd medium by which to overcome dat.... haf plenty of books to read.. so i juz hafta use those resources...

ok... so datz dat... enuff abt myself.... i guess i shld talk abt something dat pertains to each n everyone of us... if not dis entry will reek of perpetual boredom abt my boring life... hehe...

in the light of recent events dat haf juz unfolded in our world todae... both globally n locally... i guess itz onli appropriate to bring up dis issue of "wat's life all abt??"... u can be ard at one moment n juz haf ur life snuffed out of u the nxt.... so wat the heck izzit all abt?? typically itz juz living out ur childhood... reach adulthood n try to get a job and a life partner in the process... work ur butt off to support ur family.... then retire to nice old cosy rocking chair at the end of it all... n juz slip away when ur time's up....

if u tink datz life... tink again... each n every one of us r different.... we may not get married.... may not haf kids... may not get a nice rocking chair (which is most probably the case.. haha...) perhaps a few of us, if i may put it in a veri "CHOY!" way, may not be ard to get dat rocking chair we're suppose to get when we retire... may not even be ard to work our butts off.... (now u're supposed to say in unison: "choy!"...)

so.... juz watz dis life abt anyway? if at the end of it all we're juz gonna leave all our stuff here on earth... y bother working? y bother collecting possessions n chuck them in a dark corner? y bother tinking abt future plans when they all end the same way? well... one perspective to dis (especially the first question) is "y bother bathing when u're gonna get dirty the nxt day"? we all noe the answer y we gotta bath yah? if not i guess u're not my fren... my frens smell nice... haha.. :P

ok... i wun act like some 1000 year-old wise sage or some hermit dat's juz arrived at enlightenment or something like dat.... but i'll juz provide (as best as i can) my perspective of it all... to me... life is a learning experience... i'm nt talking abt studying ur entire life.... for a slacker like me i'm naturally totally against dat.. haha... well anyway... as time progresses in life... we learn frm experiences, events n advice... n thru those we mature to become stronger n wiser than we were b4... physically, mentally n ,for some, spiritually....

n for wat purpose is dis learning for? itz all gonna be left here after we leave rite? well... i dunno about u... but for me.. i prefer to take a religious look at it.... as secular views do not convince me any one bit n do not appeal to my mental sense of logic.... well... not dat the religious view is veri logical in itself but at least it satisfies my sense of reasoning somehow.... well anyway.... to me personally i believe maturing is a way to prepare us for the "life to come" so-called.... i guess if we're not veri mature we wun be able to fully appreciate the wonder of it all when we're there...

perhaps u'll be tinking... "isn't it unfair to those ppl who aren't allowed time to mature b4 they r 'made to leave our earthly being'?" well... as i haf said... i'm not a millenial sage so i dun tink i haf answers to those... all i noe is dat God has plans for them dat we wun be able to comprehend with our extremely knowledge of onli the past n the present.... i guess itz onli in future when we look on hindsight dat we truly noe wat is happening.... perhaps we wun noe for the rest of our lives... but still i believe there's a purpose behind all these things dat haf come to pass...

well... i do admit i dun haf the answers to many perplexing questions.... perhaps even my views here may be wrong or of a veri shallow perspective.... but dat's y life's a learning experience... i tink i'll be able to get more answers to these questions as i continue to walk life's road....

i tink i've written quite a bit.... at least in my current lazy bumming state... but yeah.. i guess i'll juz leave u guyz to digest these issues slowly.... it would realli help to tink abt wat u wanna achieve out of life... it would help focus ur activities... it would help as a driving force for ur life... n i guess datz wat living life is all abt.... well... til the nxt entry... ciaoz~... ^^

haiz... be needing inspiration....

heyz ppl... haven't been updating lately coz there's some lack of inspiration... but since i'm so bored now.. i guess i shld juz write down some things dat come to mind rite now... hehe...

well.. itz been quite an eventful two weeks of the new yr... went to KL with me family on the first week... shopped like crazy due to the overwhelming gravitational draw of shopping areas to 2 fine ladies... but yeah... wasn't too bad....

second week's been more of stoning n slacking at home.. n looking for a job at the same time....didn't get a place at me neighbour's company... so yeah... now i ended up at times centre doing coolie n computer work at the same time.... not dat i'm complaining.... i haf no qualms abt it actually... hehe..

with most of me frenz in tekong now.... itz kinda boring knowing dat i can't meet up with as many ppl as i could in the past.... n now dat almost everyone's working now it doesn't help matters at all... oh well... i can onli look forward to work nxt week to relieve me of my perpetual state of mental n spiritual stasis.... i dunno... needing such stimuli in my life to excite my head n heart makes me feel veri unassured of wat the future holds in store for me... perhaps retirement? moments of constant stagnation r the most "effective" periods to deaden me heart n mind... n such reliance on activity is not gd at all..

well... dis week's memory card verse is frm psalm 3:3 "but You, O Lord, are a shield for me, my glory and the One who lifts up my head"... come to tink of it... perhaps if i do take more time to meditate on God n His word He can "shield" me frm such deadening of the mind n spirit.... "the One who lifts up my head"... yeah.... dat affirms God's hand in bringing me out of dis sianed state if i'm more conscious of Him.... well... these r small points but i guess itz a new insight nonetheless.... thank God for dis new look into the verse.... hoping to haf more as the days go by... been too preoccupied with myself lately....

hmm... quite a bit has been written despite my uninspired state... not too bad... but yeah... i guess i shld end here.... no point trying to squeeze water out of a rock.... anyway if anyone noes of any webbie where i can stream music into dis blog pls let me noe.... i'll like to put some background music... hehe... well... til the nxt entry... ciaoz~.. ^^