where is the love....

well well... so here's me again trying to make some entry... keeping to me quota... tho nowadays dun realli haf the inspiration to tink of realli deep stuffz.... perhaps i need a realli gd book... hahz... but anyhow i guess as in the last entry... i'll juz rattle off wateva comes to my mind at the present moment....

was juz listening to the love*3 song by FIR... then i remembered something i saw during the week dat realli gave me the direct opposite impression.... haha... a weirdly rebellious thought process i muz say... but yeah... was having some silly safety talk in camp... then they were showing like video clips of road accidents coz the topic for the talk waz abt road safety... n some farny guy frm some driving centre came down to give the talk...

so wazzup with love n road accidents? well.. as i saw those clips... i see the lack of love in our society... even in the everyday event of commuting on the roads... there waz dis clip where dis silly motorcyclist waz looking at some car dat stopped at the road shoulder on the expressway dat he didn't notice the coach dat waz rite in front of him... so dat guy smashed straight into the back of the bus... helmet flew off n bike waz stuck in the coach... guy waz lying in the middle of the road...

well at least the oncoming car managed to turn away frm the poor guy n didn't roll over him... but the thing dat i'm realli pissed off abt is dat subsequently every motorist waz doing exactly the same thing... i would expect at least one guy to stop n at least call the ambulance or something... but those ppl were so bastard as to slow down... look at watz happening n then drive off...i realli didn't feel gd watching dat... took abt 2 to 3 mins for the silly coach driver to get out of the coach n stand ard the motorcyclist n figure out wat to do....

well dat motorcyclist died frm the accident... which made me realli pissed... itz realli irritating to see an unnecessary loss of life coz of ppl who couldn't be bothered or were juz plain lazy... i dunno.. but the fact is still dat the guy died....

itz realli sad when we always hear ppl incessantly talking abt love... how they would go thru all sorts of lame stoopid things for ppl they love... when they dun show dat kind of love to ppl who realli need it... i guess when it comes to the economy of love in singapore... we're realli a third world country in dat sense... wat makes it so.... well i realli dunno... izzit culture? or the nurturing environment? i tink it has even come to a point to me dat i even question our claim to humanity... to being human.... or perhaps we're human... but we haf chosen to amplify the negative/animalistic aspects of our humanity... traits like self-preservation... timidity... onli showing love to those we love or those who we know will reciprocate dat love...

i do admit dat i struggle with such traits.... esp dat of self-preservation... but hey... at least i tink i'm doing something abt it.... many ppl are juz oblivious to such facts abt themselves coz they bother more abt watz gd abt their lives dat they forget or even can't be bothered to do some introspection once in awhile.... n even when they do get to take a gd look at themselves... their ego gets in the way n imputes such ridiculously high esteem on themselves dat u realli wonder if there realli is anything considered wrong at all.... such an attitude realli gets on ppl's nerves coz it can get realli realli ridiculous at times.... of course such an attitude shld nt be confused with confidence... altho many times the line between the two attitudes can be oh so thin.....

oh well.. i guess i dun wanna tink anymore... talk abt lazy... haha.. so til the nxt entry... ciaoz.. ^^

meaning vs purpose....

well... seems like itz been awhile since i updated the blog... heh... soory abt dat... me mind waz preoccupied by some things for awhile... so yeah.. didn't realli feel like opening up.... or maybe itz juz dat i dunno how to pen down my thoughts exactly... but hey... here's another entry... n i guess talk abt anything dat comes on my mind... nth preplanned...

well anyway been tinking abt how ppl always like to say dat they can't find meaning in life... well to me meaning in life is ironically meaningless... coz i tink meaning is most of the time imputed to life based on our veri limited knowledge of the overall circumstances n the future especially.... n wat we tink life is can actually be a gross misrepresentation of the reality of wat ur life realli is....

well then... of course we cannot juz float ard in lfie aimlessly w/o any direction rite? so to me... itz more impt to find ur PURPOSE in life instead of meaning... so watz the diff? seems like itz juz abt the same thing... well it is but there's a veri subtle but essential difference between the 2... i guess i'll use an analogy to illustrate this idea... tho i tink it may nt be a veri accurate representation of the difference itself.... take for example a can opener... itz purpose is to open cans rite? we dun hear ppl saying "the meaning of a can opener is to open cans" instead of "the purpose of the can opener is to open cans"... well wat i'm realli driving at is dat meaning is wat we give to life based on our knowledge.... purpose on the otherhand is wat our life is in reality...

therefore i come across the fact dat our meaning in life may be a misrepresentation of wat our lives r in reality.... to make it more understandable in our humanly context.... some ppl insist they're leaders.... their meaning in life is to lead others to attain greater goals... or to achieve something in their respective occupations... but perhaps their life reflects otehrwise... where they feel they're leading but their followers dun realli feel gd abt the leadership... well meaning in life may be gd for the leader as it becomes his motivation... but his meaning doesn't serve the purpose of leadership if the followers aren't confident abt it... perhaps the leader's purpose in life is realli... to be a follower...

i tink there is a veri dire need for us to differentiate between meaning n purpose in life.... juz take a look at the thought process of a suicidal person... most of them dun find any meaning in life anymore... which is merely bcoz they can't impute any kind of meaning into the circumstances in their lives.... but dat doesn't mean dat their life lacks purpose.... the thing is dat they've gotta seek out dat purpose in their lives.. instead of juz floating ard aimlessly n expect their lives to rejuvenate itself w/o any efforts frm themselves.... in view of the increasing cases of suicide... such a distinction is essential for everyone to know n truly believe in....

well... niway.. i guess datz abt wat i wanna say for this entry.. hahz... wil update again nxt week... ciaoz... ^^