in the empty void....
hey there ppl.... in the midst of a short period of "paperlessness"... meaning to say dat there aren't any papers for almost a week!.. anyway today's entry is not a result of inspiration but rather the lack of it....
being in the midst of an exam is tough.... especially when u haf breaks like these... i'm sure at least some who r gg these times of mental taxation would empathise...
somehow in the midst of this period of paperlessness there's this queer sense of loss.... loss of motivation... loss of purpose.... even loss of a will to go thru the day... knowing dat the day ahead would either end in total waste without studying or end in total exhaustion frm studying.....
exams r tough periods of time.... not solely bcoz of the papers... in fact for some itz not due to the papers at all... but due to the psychological n spiritual strain placed on a person.... to ensure gd results.... to juz pull thru the exams... to continue to study tho u're so darn sick of it.... to try to keep to commitments while knowing dat focussing ur energies on the exams alone is alreadi touching the limits of ur mental n spiritual strength...
i guess itz times like these dat we haf to learn to rely on God's strength in weakness (taken frm 2 Corinthians 12:8-10).... up to now i still can't seem to grasp the essence of dis lesson.... strength in weakness... perhaps i haven't found dat strength yet... perhaps i onli know how to wallow in my inadequacies.... but i dunno how to learn or even to grasp dis concept... weakness has always juz been weakness to me... having strength in weakness means dat u're alreadi strong... wherein does the weakness come in?
in dis phase of purposeless existence i realli dunno wat to do with myself.... there's a want to do something but at the same time.... there's nothing i wanna do... perplexing n frustrating indeed.... i guess there's nth much i can do besides blogging.... afterwhich i'll juz ghost ard the place.. drifting aimlessly to who-knows-where.... sorry for the depressing entry but i guess i juz need to voice these out somewhere somehow.... for those who feel the same.. juz know dat u're not alone... for those who don't.... juz be wary dat there r those who do.... guess i'll embark on my aimless "ghosting ard" quest now... so til the nxt more uplifting entry... ciaoz...
being in the midst of an exam is tough.... especially when u haf breaks like these... i'm sure at least some who r gg these times of mental taxation would empathise...
somehow in the midst of this period of paperlessness there's this queer sense of loss.... loss of motivation... loss of purpose.... even loss of a will to go thru the day... knowing dat the day ahead would either end in total waste without studying or end in total exhaustion frm studying.....
exams r tough periods of time.... not solely bcoz of the papers... in fact for some itz not due to the papers at all... but due to the psychological n spiritual strain placed on a person.... to ensure gd results.... to juz pull thru the exams... to continue to study tho u're so darn sick of it.... to try to keep to commitments while knowing dat focussing ur energies on the exams alone is alreadi touching the limits of ur mental n spiritual strength...
i guess itz times like these dat we haf to learn to rely on God's strength in weakness (taken frm 2 Corinthians 12:8-10).... up to now i still can't seem to grasp the essence of dis lesson.... strength in weakness... perhaps i haven't found dat strength yet... perhaps i onli know how to wallow in my inadequacies.... but i dunno how to learn or even to grasp dis concept... weakness has always juz been weakness to me... having strength in weakness means dat u're alreadi strong... wherein does the weakness come in?
in dis phase of purposeless existence i realli dunno wat to do with myself.... there's a want to do something but at the same time.... there's nothing i wanna do... perplexing n frustrating indeed.... i guess there's nth much i can do besides blogging.... afterwhich i'll juz ghost ard the place.. drifting aimlessly to who-knows-where.... sorry for the depressing entry but i guess i juz need to voice these out somewhere somehow.... for those who feel the same.. juz know dat u're not alone... for those who don't.... juz be wary dat there r those who do.... guess i'll embark on my aimless "ghosting ard" quest now... so til the nxt more uplifting entry... ciaoz...
da-wei waz not lazy @ 5:07 PM
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