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hehe.. juz leaving a short note... sorry for the lack of updates.... haven't been inspired to blog lately.. dunno y... muz be the stress... having to deal with the different minute phases in life.... blah blah blah...
niway juz thought dat i'll voice my thoughts in dis entry.... well.. itz not so much of a reflective entry than an entry dat appeals for a response.. hehe..
been thinking lately of wat kinda impression i give ppl... i guess most ppl i know tink i'm veri bubbly n carefree... always trying to see the lighter side of thingz n perhaps even to a point of not being serious at all....
well.. therein is the matter to ponder over: izzit bcoz of such an impression i give to ppl dat ppl can't be close to me? coz they tink dat i can't take anything seriously... dat even when ppl tell me their probz/concerns i'll juz make a joke or a lame comment out of it...
but at the same time i dun wanna give ppl my dreary (but rather unseen i guess) impression.... i tink dat will realli put ppl off or even scare them away... hehe... i guess my bubbly self is juz a front... if i may juz spill the beans... coz i know my usual self is not a veri impressive one.. hehe... i know i'm not always in the know... ppl tok n gossip abt dis event or dat person n i dun even haf half a clue wat the heck's gg on...
i guess itz bcoz of dis kinda impression i give dat ppl can't take me seriously in the rare event dat i am ACTUALLY serious.... itz a disgusting feeling to haf someone kid over something u're veri serious abt... n believe me... i know when to be serious coz i know when to draw the line.... if it isn't so obvious i'll juz respond appropriately to an outright "i'm serious..."
dunno y i juz wanna express my thoughts in dis entry... mabye i'll even look baq at dis entry in future n tink "man... y did i even tink of dis crap"... well.. juz got a feeling i shld voice it out....
niway on with the matter at hand... guess i dun haf many close frenz coz of dis "happy go lucky" impression as well as the "he's doing so well in sch n life... he doesn't need my help" impression.... well... to tell u the truth... i'm juz as normal as anyone else n i do need help too.... maybe not academically... but perhaps socially? life isn't all abt sch... there r other areas to develop too... guess my circumstances do not allow for me to develop socially... maybe not... i'm confused...
i apologise for the self-centred nature of dis entry n i apologise further if it puts u off... but i juz need ur thoughts on dis... as a matter of self-consciousness.... and as a matter of self-improvement... if u haf anything against me or anything u tink i need to know... pls tag... i'm more than happy to change accordingly.... ur response is veri much appreciated... *bows*.. so tilt he nxt entry in the not so near future.... cyaz.. ^^
niway juz thought dat i'll voice my thoughts in dis entry.... well.. itz not so much of a reflective entry than an entry dat appeals for a response.. hehe..
been thinking lately of wat kinda impression i give ppl... i guess most ppl i know tink i'm veri bubbly n carefree... always trying to see the lighter side of thingz n perhaps even to a point of not being serious at all....
well.. therein is the matter to ponder over: izzit bcoz of such an impression i give to ppl dat ppl can't be close to me? coz they tink dat i can't take anything seriously... dat even when ppl tell me their probz/concerns i'll juz make a joke or a lame comment out of it...
but at the same time i dun wanna give ppl my dreary (but rather unseen i guess) impression.... i tink dat will realli put ppl off or even scare them away... hehe... i guess my bubbly self is juz a front... if i may juz spill the beans... coz i know my usual self is not a veri impressive one.. hehe... i know i'm not always in the know... ppl tok n gossip abt dis event or dat person n i dun even haf half a clue wat the heck's gg on...
i guess itz bcoz of dis kinda impression i give dat ppl can't take me seriously in the rare event dat i am ACTUALLY serious.... itz a disgusting feeling to haf someone kid over something u're veri serious abt... n believe me... i know when to be serious coz i know when to draw the line.... if it isn't so obvious i'll juz respond appropriately to an outright "i'm serious..."
dunno y i juz wanna express my thoughts in dis entry... mabye i'll even look baq at dis entry in future n tink "man... y did i even tink of dis crap"... well.. juz got a feeling i shld voice it out....
niway on with the matter at hand... guess i dun haf many close frenz coz of dis "happy go lucky" impression as well as the "he's doing so well in sch n life... he doesn't need my help" impression.... well... to tell u the truth... i'm juz as normal as anyone else n i do need help too.... maybe not academically... but perhaps socially? life isn't all abt sch... there r other areas to develop too... guess my circumstances do not allow for me to develop socially... maybe not... i'm confused...
i apologise for the self-centred nature of dis entry n i apologise further if it puts u off... but i juz need ur thoughts on dis... as a matter of self-consciousness.... and as a matter of self-improvement... if u haf anything against me or anything u tink i need to know... pls tag... i'm more than happy to change accordingly.... ur response is veri much appreciated... *bows*.. so tilt he nxt entry in the not so near future.... cyaz.. ^^
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